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Lexy
18 August 2009 @ 10:50 am
So I am just reading a couple of my old entries and I just want to say sorry to everyone in advance. I am not ashamed of the feelings I had or the opinions I had towards people. I was really stressed out in my undergrad and was just on edge at all time. The last two years of my schooling I was taking 20-26 credits a semester and working. I was going to go through and block the entries that I thought should not be shared with others. But I need to face up with who I used to be. I did want to say sorry if I ever hurt anyone's feelings. I never meant to come off so angry or so judgmental. While part of me is ashamed of that "old Lexy" I have also learned a lot from her. So I can't be too upset. I am just upset if I hurt any people along the way. If anyone actually takes the time to read my old journal entries and sees something the don't like please feel free to call me out on it. I probably deserve it. And if it is something that you want me to take down let me know. Part of me thinks that maybe reviving this old journal is not a good idea but I think I could use a lesson or two in humility. :)
 
 
Lexy
18 August 2009 @ 10:32 am
So here is an old entry I wrote in December of 2006. First I would just like to say that I am still working on how to talk without cursing. It is a seriously bad habit. I would also like to say that I have kept to my word to try to slow down global warming and be more earth friendly. Here is how I have tried so far.

* I use only public transportation now. I have signed up for zipcar so that if I need a car I partake in the car sharing.
* I save all of my plastic bags and reuse them. Most of the time when I go grocery shopping I bring my own bags or cart.
* I turn off lights in rooms I am not in. I even turn off all my power strips at night. They use about 25% of the electricity they would use if all the devices that were plugged into them were on. Just to give you an idea of how awesome I am doing with my electricity-last JUNE/JULY my electricty bill was $271. That's for two months. This year it was $190. I could do better, but I think I'm doing great so far.
* I never have any water on full blast. I always turn the sink off while I'm brushing my teeth. I only use water when I actually need it.
* I buy iced tea powder and make my own so that I don't have to waste money on buying beverages and waste the plastic.
* At work I have a cup and my own plates so that I don't have to buy paper or plastic items to eat with.
* Even though my job doesn't recycle I save all the paper I use and take it home to recycle.
* And when I see people here toss their garbage on the street, I pick it up and throw it away. Depending on the item of course. I won't pick up things that people have sneezed on, have put in their mouths, or any other liquid nastiness that might be on it.

I'm sure there are a couple more things that I do. This is something that I have been really passionate about. I'm changing my ways slowly, but it's better than nothing. I bought this book called "Eco-Friendly Families." I haven't started reading yet but I will. Saving the world-one step at a time :) I encourage all of you to do the same.













So it's official. I'm scared of global warming. It's stupid but I'm mostly scared for the polar bears. But also, it's December 18th and I haven't worn my winter coat barely at all this month. At work I just wear my t-shirt and I'm fine.

I was watching the news tonight and global warming is at its worse this year! There are bears in zoos and probably in nature as well that are SUPPOSED to be hybernating right now but because it's been so warm it's keeping them up. Ski resorts that are usually in full bloom right now have not a single snowflake on their hills. There were actually people who were happy about it! I mean I probably hate the cold more than anyone else. But someone said "I'm all for global warming." WHAT!?! You fucking retard. Global warming means the end of the world faster. STUPID RETARD!


So usually I don't make new years resolutions because I know most of the time they're worthless. But this year I'm really going to try. Even though I'm only one person hopefully I can make a difference. I am going to try to drive my car less. Keep my electricity off more. And I'll try to use florescent bulbs more. And whatever else I figure out I have to do. And I urge you all to do the same!



Americans only make up 4 percent of the population but they make up 25 percent of the pollution that leads to global warming. Think about that.
 
 
Lexy
18 August 2009 @ 10:10 am
So I was talking to a co-worker of mine recently. She does this "observatory" thing once a month. I'm not really 100 percent sure what it is. I've listened to some samples. To me it seems like a live blog/stand up comedy skit. Basically, a bunch of people get together on stage and tell their own real life stories which are usually humorous. I'll have to make it to one of them one of these days. The problem is that I live in the flippin' Bronx which is far from everything; especially on the weekend when the trains run like ass. Anywho. Moving on.

So this co-worker of mine was telling me about the next story she is going to tell. She found some old journal entries of hers talking about this ex-boyfriend she had. She was super psycho over him and there were clear signs he didn't want to be with her but she just was so "in love" she totally ignored them. It was pretty hilarious. So it inspired me to log back into the good ol' livejournal and take a look see. And plus I thought it might be nice to keep up the writing habit if I ever want to get published.

I'm not too happy with some of my old journal entries. It's actually quite embarrassing how angry I used to get over the small stuff. I can't say that has completely changed about myself. What I do know that is I actively try not to let people or what they say bother me anymore. If something they say does bother me I try my best to talk to them directly about it. Through my old journal entries I am noticing how damaging the internet can really be. How it can completely disconnect a society and fool them into thinking they are being extremely social when they are doing the total opposite. I still think that the internet is a great way to communicate ideas and stay in touch with people. I just don't think it should serve as our main source of communication.

I have an actual journal now. I wrote in it last night. Before that I hadn't written in it for about 2 months. I'm not really good with keeping up with it. Not sure why because sometimes I feel like I have a lot to say. I think part of it is because I also post Notes on Facebook. I know no one really reads this journal anymore figuring that I haven't logged into the damn thing for almost 3 years. But that's ok. I think it will be a good place to practice my writing. I could just write word documents and save them to my computer. But that takes up too much space. :) So between my actual journal, this journal, and Facebook I might start creating my paper trail of memories of me. I have some journals from when I was little, but not much. I wish I would have kept more. From all my moving around and stuff I don't remember much up until I hit middle school which sucks. I want to have these journals to look at for myself. I want to be able to read through them as I get older and reflect who I was as a person and how I have changed. But I also want my children to be able to read them. Maybe find some kind of wisdom from them. Not that I am the smartest person in the world; but maybe they can learn from some of my mistakes, joys, pains, etc.

Anywho. Time to get back to work. Peace out ya'll. I have something that's really important to me to write. Hopefully I'll get to it during lunch. Peace.
 
 
Lexy
21 December 2006 @ 11:39 am
Ok so this is what I thought I was going to get for grades
Special Projects in Directing: 4.0
Special Projects in Stage Managemnt: 4.0
Acting Ensemble: 4.0
Begginning Ballet: 3.3
Modern Dance II: 3.0
Women and Work: 3.0
Acting 3: 3.7



And this is what I actually got...
BEGINNING BALLET 3.7
MODERN DANCE II 3.7
ACTING 3 4.0
ACTING ENSEMBLE I 4.0
@SPEC PROJECT/STAGE MANAGEMNT 4.0
SPECIAL PROJECT/DIRECTING 4.0
WOMEN AND WORK Potsdam 3.3


I'm awesome
 
 
Lexy
18 December 2006 @ 11:49 pm
So it's official. I'm scared of global warming. It's stupid but I'm mostly scared for the polar bears. But also, it's December 18th and I haven't worn my winter coat barely at all this month. At work I just wear my t-shirt and I'm fine.

I was watching the news tonight and global warming is at its worse this year! There are bears in zoos and probably in nature as well that are SUPPOSED to be hybernating right now but because it's been so warm it's keeping them up. Ski resorts that are usually in full bloom right now have not a single snowflake on their hills. There were actually people who were happy about it! I mean I probably hate the cold more than anyone else. But someone said "I'm all for global warming." WHAT!?! You fucking retard. Global warming means the end of the world faster. STUPID RETARD!


So usually I don't make new years resolutions because I know most of the time they're worthless. But this year I'm really going to try. Even though I'm only one person hopefully I can make a difference. I am going to try to drive my car less. Keep my electricity off more. And I'll try to use florescent bulbs more. And whatever else I figure out I have to do. And I urge you all to do the same!



Americans only make up 4 percent of the population but they make up 25 percent of the pollution that leads to global warming. Think about that.
 
 
 
Lexy
15 December 2006 @ 12:58 am
So it's official. I have survived my last fall semester of my undergrad career. I can't believe it. It feels so weird. And I have no idea what's gonna happen next. I am so scared to graduate. I was so prepared before. I'll do an apprenticeship then go to grad school and blah blah blah. But looking at the grad schools I want to apply to they are like "you should have such and such experience." But I need a GOOD education to get experience. So what the fuck. The fields I want to go in I need at least an MFA. So it's fucked. I need to have an MFA to get a job but I need job experience to get the MFA. Stupid. So I don't know what I'm going to do. What if I don't get into the apprenticeships I apply for? POOP! All this stupid real life stress. I hate it already.





I still don't know what I'm doing as far as next semester goes. Which I hate not knowing exactly what I'm doing.




This will probably be my most productive winter break ever. I usually hate winter break because all I do is work and fight with my mom. But this time I'll be working on my spanish lessons, do research and lesson plans for theatre history, and get my shit prepared for my internship. Yayness. Then going to new paltz for the acting competition. And of course I'll be working at stupid pizza hut.



I don't really have anything interesting to say. So.....yeah....I'm gonna go.
 
 
Lexy
11 December 2006 @ 09:21 pm
So I sold more books today. I brought 5. They wouldn't even take one of them. So for four more books I got 14 friggin dollars. Michael got 40 bucks for one book. Lucky bastard. Again I say, screw you SUNY Potsdam.




I have guesstimates of what I might get as final grades this semester. Just want to compare. So here are my guesses




Special Projects in Directing: 4.0
Special Projects in Stage Managemnt: 4.0
Acting Ensemble: 4.0
Begginning Ballet: 3.3
Modern Dance II: 3.0
Women and Work: 3.0
Acting 3: 3.7




I gave myself the worst possible grades I think I could get. So let's hope they're not any lower than that!
 
 
Lexy
11 December 2006 @ 03:59 pm
So today is officially finals week. My first final isn't until 5 p.m. It's for Women and Work. Ballet final on tuesday. And Modern Dance final on Thursday. Then I'm done. Pretty painless. Just wanna get tonight over with because this will be by far the hardest final.


I'm not looking forward to my modern dance final because my teacher is the devil...from alabama. The stupid whore doesn't listen to a single concern that I have. And she throws a backward roll in the dance and I don't think I've ever done a backward roll in my life. And I tried a couple times on my own in class but I can't get it. So I asked her to help me and she said she would but then just like walked away. So I had a couple of my friends in the class help me and I hurt myself. And she was standing over me totally nonchalant "are you ok". My response "i guess" and hers "ok" and she walks away again. And then we're practicing the routine and i don't do the backward roll and she stops us and tells me I have to do the routine full out. So I saw to her for hopefully the last time loud and VERY clear " I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A BACKWARD ROLL" And her response "well fake it" You stupid fucking bitch. I hate her. So now I'm probably going to get not such a great grade on this performance because she can't take 10 minutes out of her life to teach me how to do a stupid fucking roll. Not to mention that I've told her AT LEAST 5 times out of the semester that I have REALLY bad knees, especially my right one, and I can't really squat on stay with on the floor for too long. And yet she STILL asks me why I don't squat or stay with my knees on the floor too long. I hate you stefanie adcock.


In other news, and not that this is my place to complain about, a lot of old chicas from high school have been getting a hold of me through myspace. I would say about 8. And the thing that worries me is almost all of them are pregnant and married. Most of the younger than me. And I realize some people make it work. But how many of them are ready for that kind of life? And it also makes me wonder if I would have been in that same boat if I would have stayed with Isaac. Would I be Mrs. Facey knocked up twice and just trying to make the best of it instead of going out and getting an education and making the best of myself. I mean don't get me wrong, i want kids someday...I think. But I want to be able to provide it with everything that I can. Not spoil it. But I think you guys get the point.



Ok im gonna stop bitching. Michael is waiting for me to take a shower. YAY! Naughty. lol. jk. peace out homies
 
 
Lexy
09 December 2006 @ 03:49 pm
So pizza hut is stupid.


I don't want to go to my acting 3 final.



And I'm becoming pissed off at everyone. Which I am really trying to stay away from. But for some reason everyone is really annoying the hell out of me. Poop.
 
 
Lexy
07 December 2006 @ 03:44 pm
So I'm standing in line at the school store to sell back books. The first person in line got $135 back in books. The 2nd person inlike got $35 back for one friggin book. I sold back four fuckin books and I only got $7.75.



Oh how I hate you SUNY Potsdam.